Thursday, May 5, 2011

I'm taking a break from Chinese right now and I'm quite happy and stuff - mich was right it does feel good to just work work work and slave over something and really put your all into it :) And it's worth it too. I don't feel tired, but I know I am because I tried playing tetris and while I cleared 76 lines, I was moving in a trance-like speed, slow and steady - which is not the way I usually play. I usually make a lot more mistakes and I haven't played so well in quite some time lol. One thing I learnt from tetris though - it will all be okay eventually :) Don't focus too much on that one mistake and most importantly just keep going. I think I will work at chinese for two more hours - I'll be back after I'm done :)

...and here I fall asleep lol. I didn't manage to finish studying, and tanglaoshi postponed to next week - never made excuses but I knew if I were to do it today I'd just fail and honestly what then is the point? I can count with one hand the number of chinese worksheets I passed lol...actually it's only one and that's with the help of tianyue + rachellee + michelle and even then I'd gotten 10/20..this sucks :P

But okay..I've talked to the teacher and stuff and I called krystle last night: just feel like a huge burden's been lifted off my chest la :) Here's my promise to work hard at chinese, as I've told the teacher - and as she said it's really a decision I need to make to really be disciplined and stuff so mmm :) She's actually quite nice and I'm quite touched by her.. Hahaha and here everyone in class is shocked by me saying this - we haven't had a very good history, as things go.

Mugging bio with michelle later - looking forward to it! Lots to do but I'm quite pumped up and ready to go again :) It's quite funny how yesterday I was bursting into random prayer/tongues at random times when I just felt so stressed and couldn't take it anymore ^^ And I was singing God will make a way softly to myself..

Reminding myself to just keep going no matter what, to keep looking to the future because that's all that's important with the past behind me, knowing that in the end I am loved and thus I can love.