Monday, April 4, 2011

Anyway God's impeccable sense of humor...it's fate I tell you it's fate, that she was taking dc today. And that she was my Selection Camp facil. I'm like what why is it always you -_- And I don't know if I've stopped as I said I really don't...urps just realized I'm making it really obvious and well anyway if you happen to chance upon my blog: yes I used to think you were cool. But ah well kept glancing in her direction during dc [partly because I was bored you can't blame me!] Sigh honestly now I'm rambling...

It's always this time of the day, y'know? That all my feelings flare and I get stressed. I don't know what to think anymore, don't know what to say, just so heck confused about everything... The dam's gotten so high I don't even see the other side anymore... Break it down for me God break it down :( Anyway quoting Priya "dreams are the mind's way of telling you what you'd like to express but are unable to express".

Haven't been having the best dreams lately. School was boring today anyway.

It just hit me, somewhere in the middle of today, that it is April. That a quarter of my last year with 203 has passed. And what have I done? Nothing. I want that excitement again God, that vision in my heart, that fire again... I want to be more God. I'm really not satisfied with what I have become and I do believe that there is more to me than this. This fragile little weakling [okay maybe not] but please God let me keep growing, let me keep maturing...