Wednesday, March 23, 2011

So I failed moxie. And I now have to moxie the whole passage. So shoot me already. It's practically impossible, but I'm going to do it. I'm going to pass. By God's grace or some miracle, I'm going to pass. I'll just have to mug my butt off on Tuesday.

And she called my mum, too. She told my mum that at this rate I was going, I was about to fail Chinese altogether. [Nothing surprising there.] And that I only handed in 10% of the work she gave me. [She was trying to sugarcoat it; frankly don't remember handing in even one piece of work.] And that I was a cheerful girl, but I'd have to work harder. [Sticks tongue out in disgust.]

I betrayed my parents' trust in me. They've always always trusted me, and I don't like to betray that trust. They like to spend more time on Jessica, and I see the need. Heck, I help them with Jessica. I've stopped needing to be taken care of, or at least in their eyes. And yet, I wish that even throughout my last years of primary school, they had watched over my work closely, instead of letting me run around. Maybe then I'd have learnt the lesson of discipline, and wouldn't have to suffer as I did now. Maybe then I'd be better at Chinese.

Then again, there's no point in all those, so right now, this is a promise I make to myself:

I'm going to pull up my Chinese.

I'm going to pull up my Chinese.

I'm going to pull up my Chinese.

I'm glad though, that I finished the 作文. I hope I'll do well, 'cos I really did put in effort(: And I even had a draft one. zuowen is something I've always enjoyed doing, despite my vow to hate Chinese my whole life. It's strange, y'know. Most people don't like doing zuowens. But I do. Oh I do XD I used to get 30+ in Primary school, and it was the only Chinese thing I actually excelled in.

Feeling quite happy and proud of myself now. I've been writing an essay every single night, Chinese or English, for all sorts of subjects - History Bio Chinese, and I probably will continue this chain of mine. So tomorrow's Lit, and English will probably take slightly longer, but for now I'm happy.

Willing myself to do more work [History SBQ] now, but I've to find it first and that's a bit of a chore considering the amount of rubbish there is in my room right now.