Monday, January 3, 2011

so today i've decided to blog to my heart's contenttttt :D usually i blog in a more formal manner but today i'm just gonna blabber and talk about everything that comes to mind.

aishhh i'm so tired stupid jetlag how am i gonna go for school tomorrow! rawwwrr..

ytd was a super super busy tiring day though i never once left home.

well okay fine i slept until 2+ and used e com until about 4+ so that's not counted huh.

then after that i called alicia...havent talked to her in ages well was overseass...but yea she said her brother needed to use the phone but i'm not sure about that cos i heard them talking in the background and it didn't seem like it..she said her phone's spoilt so i told krys to sms her mum..dont know just keep praying. wonder how her day went will call her later. before i leave for school.

then after that dinner blah blaah..called mindy after that hope she's fine don't know anything but still...this makes me remember the times last year i prayed for random people although i didn't know what was going on in their life...can't remember who exactly but i know at one point i prayed for chelsea and at another i prayed for rita...rita was about festival of praise season. idk. just prayed lol...felt they were going through not so great times.. :)

this year's gonna be amazing!!! :))) i'm really holding on in faith..this year it's time for us to grow grow grow! and this year i really want to get to know the people in the cell better...starting with julie, then maybe i'll call evelina or someone..the sec2s and the sec4s luh. mainly the sec4s though don't know them they always seem so distant...THIS YEAR'S GONNA BE AMAZING!

okay so last night and last week and last month (and last year?) i was terrified of this day when school would start. i mean like. (i told this to mich ytd but i thought i'd just repeat it...) i've never doubted God's ability in this, that He will not fail me. but at that time/now i'm doubting MY ability, that i will fail HIM. and that's just scary. 2010 was hell enough; i don't want 2011 to be worse..but sigh! eyes of faith = looking at trials as opportunities. i remember in the exam period i used to write that in huge words and paste it on my wall in front of where i pray...hahaha. quite cool la. sigh. blogging can be tiring.

um but anyway yesterday i went to my sister's room to watch three kingdoms...and realized...

THAT MY CHINESE IS HORRIBLY LACKING.

so i'm kinda screwed if i don't study hard next year.

*this year. gonna take some time for me to get used to saying this year. but yes. i've already asked mich and julie to help me...and if it comes to it, i'm gonna ask everyone who can help me to help me. desperate.

I WILL NOT FAIL CHINESE. I LOVE CHINESE. IT IS MY FAVORITE SUBJECT. IT IS SO INTERESTING. <3

then i talked to everyone i could cos i couldnt sleep but after a while mich found me and we...talked...

im not gonna say anything more, but it set my priorities/feelings straight, while making you feel better, so thank you. the talk went for quite long until about 3am.

and yes i did suffer from SWS - skippy withdrawal syndrome so i called her quite often lol.

thought svc was quite amazing pst kong preached about dreams...i think at one point of time, i have "lost heart"; i have "grown weary"... galations 6:9 "and let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart." wow. yeah. then after that i can't remember what happened for the day i know i went for lunch... OH! i played tetris with titi and tacie (Y) keep getting trashed luhh [hmph!]

welll...reached singapore at 5am; went to eat hawker food...first time for joanne lol we're too pampered la at least we're not spoilt...i'm gonna try taking bus home later and for the rest of this year! yeah then lunch and blah blah blah then THANKSGIVING CELL! umm i've never gone for thanksgiving cell before, but lets just say it was amazingg. my sis didnt really want me to go cos welll...it WAS new years. sigh. she's not very happy with my cell as of now, not that she ever was. but its okay...i love my cell and i love my family so... :)

yeah and we all thanked God for something last year (the one we thanked God for most) and as i thought about it..I THANK GOD FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE. and we could only thank God for one thing...I thanked Him for everything - the cell; school; my family.. and soo: I think that no matter what happens, even if last year was like hell...I still have a God. and it is in His presence that I truly find fullness of joy. "You will show me the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy; at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore." then after everyone shared they gave out awards according to the nine fruits of the Spirit. OMG CHEEKUEN AND MARCUSEE ARE SO LAME. a lot weird stuff la. but anyway...

i got the peace award :) [spiritually wise.] yeah..idk if i deserve it or not, but i know that i am making a difference. to someone's life. and i think that's most important for me. [thank you, michelle.]

i'm using the jar now for verses/words of encouragement/quotes/lyrics so whenever i feel down i'll just take one out and read it and be HAPPY again. yeah..hahaha. the quote i most like i shall blog here as well:

"I believe that enthusiasts have a special calling, and I hope that they will never stop celebrating and never stop believing, even in the darkest night." - Sacred Pathways

Umm, it's from a book...and I am an enthusiast, according to that book so I really like this part of the book... :)

I'M NOT GONNA BLOG ABOUT MY HOLIDAYS SOOOO RAWR.

I shall go bathe and go to school (sigh! ccao so uselesssssssssss)