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Sunday, October 31, 2010

"I don't need a friend who changes when I change and who nods when I nod; my shadow does that much better."
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:34 PM

I could sing of Your love forever.
Great great great QT.
I wrote a letter to myself...
I know it'll prove helpful in times of trials, I know.
God is all I need, God is so amazing, His love will never fail me.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:23 AM

Going crazy ahhh need to pray NAO >:(
And the best thing is idk what I'm going crazy over.
See, that's what tv/computers do to you.

RAWR.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:21 AM

“I am the doctor who's trying to save your son's life. You're the mother who's letting him die. Clarification- it's a beautiful thing.”

I AM GRUMPY.
7:02 AM

Chase: "You're gonna talk to a patient?"
House: "God talks to him. It'd be arrogant of me to assume that I'm better than God."

I AM GRUMPY.
6:56 AM

Cameron: "Brandon's not ready for surgery."
House: "OK, let's leave it a couple of weeks. He should be feeling better by then. Oh wait, which way does time go?"

I AM GRUMPY.
6:50 AM

Children are the living messages we send to a time we will not see.
John W. Whitehead

I AM GRUMPY.
6:46 AM

House: "Hello, sick people and their loved ones! In the interest of saving time and avoiding a lot of boring chitchat later, I'm Doctor Gregory House; you can call me "Greg". I'm one of three doctors staffing this clinic this morning."
Cuddy: "Short, sweet, grab a file."
House: "This ray of sunshine is Doctor Lisa Cuddy. Doctor Cuddy runs this whole hospital, so unfortunately she's much too busy to deal with you. I am a board ... certified diagnostician with a double specialty of infectious disease and nephrology. I am also the only doctor currently employed at this hospital who is forced to be here against his will.
That is true, isn't it? (to Cuddy)
But not to worry, because for most of you, this job could be done by a monkey with a bottle of Motrin. Speaking of which, if you're particularly annoying, you may see me reach for this: this is Vicodin. It's mine! You can't have any! And no, I do not have a pain management problem, I have a pain problem ... but who knows? Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm too stoned to tell. So, who wants me? "

I AM GRUMPY.
6:45 AM

♥ House XD

Chase: "It doesn't necessarily have to be that bad. If we exclude the night terrors it could be something systemic: his liver, kidneys, something outside the brain."
House: "Yes, feel free to exclude any symptom if it makes your job easier."

I love House MD ahh watch out for a lot more of House quotes coming up!

I AM GRUMPY.
6:42 AM

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
John W. Gardner

No wonder I suck at it then.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:39 AM

You know how to let your emotions show but you still find it difficult to do so as often as you should. You should be prepared to let your emotions out more often. When you feel sad let yourself cry, when you feel angry, let your anger show and when you feel happy allow a smile to cross your face. Allowing your emotions out in this way will do wonders to your physical and mental health.

That's what a facebook quiz says, and yes I do agree.

I AM GRUMPY.
5:35 AM

♥ Conversation with michelle

Me: have I been insensitive to you at any point of time?
Mich: Aha if you have I can't remember, since I do tend to be overly straightforward myself :P
Me: ugh you suck.

Oops.
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:18 AM

Was thinking about what xiaohan said again and I realized something. I got it from my sister. :O I've grown to be quite like her I think, and that's not the best thing in the world sometimes.
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:17 AM

♥ Xiaohan says

I need more tact and sensitivity while talking to people...but honestly I don't know how. I'll try, yes I will..but I'm not sure how. I shall try. I think she's right. Upon further consideration, I realize I've spoken too quickly a few times to many.
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:12 AM

"Keep your faith up"
Ahh yes I must yes I must..
Even though it really really seems like nothing's happening,
I know God's moving.
He's moving in my life,
He's moving in rg.
Whoo! :)
Spammed quotes (Y)
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:04 AM

"You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have really lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love."
Henry Drummond
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:49 AM

"Only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be."
Karen Rvn
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:48 AM

"If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become more, you are a leader."
John Quincy Adam
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:48 AM

"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily."
Zig Ziglar
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:47 AM

"Flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Encourage me, and I will not forget you. Love me and I may be forced to love you."
William Arthur Ward
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:46 AM

"Really great people make you feel that you, too, can become great."
Mark Twain
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:45 AM

"Don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be challenges, obstacles and less than perfect conditions. So what. Get started now. With each step you take, you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident and more and more successful."
Mark Victor Hansen
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:43 AM

"Enthusiasm is excitement with inspiration, motivation, and a pinch of creativity."
Bo Bennett
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:42 AM

"As a well spent day brings happy sleep, so a life well spent brings happy death."
Leonardo Da Vinci
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:17 AM

"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe."

Gail Devers
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:13 AM

"Obstacles are things a person sees when he takes his eyes off his goal."

E. Joseph Cossman
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:17 AM

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Forever hoping,
Praying,
Believing.

I'm moving in rg, I know.
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I AM GRUMPY.
9:46 PM

"What people call insincerity is simply a method by which we can multiply our personalities."
Oscar Wilde
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I AM GRUMPY.
10:39 AM

"Writing is an exploration. You start from nothing and learn as you go."
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I AM GRUMPY.
10:37 AM

I'm so tired it's 1AM shouldn't have left praying until now..it's all right all though I'm tired I'm going to put God first in my life, and not sleep cos in His presence I get all the rest I need!
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I AM GRUMPY.
10:01 AM

♥ Two very eventful days

DISCLAIMER: Long post ahead. Read at your own risk. To help, important things in RED.

Whoo hello!~ So I'm finally on my computer. By the way, you're allowed to be bored at this point of time and skip everything. Yes. This post is about everything that has happened in these two days, yesterday and today. Or well, the main points of it. So this post is about:

1) Selection Camp, 29/10
Yes, yes. Selection camp. I want to be a JPSL next year, I've wanted to for very long. It's safe to say that Z is my motivation behind this desire. I really really want to be like her, and I really really really care a lot for the people, for my friends, for the Sec1s. I may have posted this before. I come to school wanting to make an impact on other people, wanting to touch their lives in one way or another. It really hurts me to see someone hurt, because I care. I want to find a need and meet it, find a hurt and heal it. I hope I won't be disappointed if I don't get in, because I really want to. I'm trying to let myself understand that even if I don't get the job, I can still help my friends. I can still show them that I care, and that is really what I've been doing for some time already this year.

But yes, let me not sidetrack. So we had all the boring stuff, introductions and all, guess what: Xiaohan was my facil ><

They scolded us so much. Really. Ahh :O It was quite horrible, all that scolding. Laura was one of the worst. (Tu) was almost as bad. And the worst thing is everything they said was true. We had bad teamwork and all. They made it sound worse that it did, though. But I learnt a lot..I learnt that: I talk a lot, and should stop interrupting others. I should take time to slow down, listen, and make sure that everyone is all right. I also didn't manage to learn the cheer well, and I know it's very much my fault. Laura kept scolding us for it, and I really do feel guilty for not being able to get it. There are no excuses for that I think..and the more they scolded me, the more frantic I get. Which is bad. But yes the screaming at us part was just horrible, but the takeaways was great. It was fun getting to know others as well.

2) Everything after that, 29/10
So, tennis. Pfft. I was already tired. NOT FAIR. Hahaha. I went late for it, so I only had about two hours. It was really fun though! Whoo I love tennis despite sucking at it XD uh yeah it went quite well...other than the fact Jenn fell down and started crying halfway :( I need to call her soon to see if she's doing all right. Heard she hasn't been the best. Hope she's all right. Really want to help her. According to my sis she's been crying quite often and Jenn I just want you to know I'm praying for you, that you'll understand what's best for you, that you'll really grow to be more maturing and understanding, that your family as well will grow to understand you, and most importantly I pray you'll be happy. Yup and then their mum cooked for us and blah blah blah and it was quite fun but she kept making me eat so much 'cos she heard of how much I ate last Friday. I fell asleep on their couch [it was comfy!] and my sis had to wake me up and make me walk, half-asleep and all, back to the car and home. I fell asleep once I got home - the day was tiring - without changing, calling anlynn and doing qt :( Will make up for it tonight!
3) Halloween, 30/10
HALLOWEEN WAS JUST AWESOME AHH I LOVE W445 I LOVE THE CELL I LOVE EVERYONE IN IT AHH I LOVE THE PEOPLE THERE. This family is one I hope I'll never leave. I don't understand it, but I know that I love this place where we are as one, together.
{Psalm 26:8} LORD, I have loved the habitation of thy house, and the place where thine honour dwelleth.
I can't remember the song, but it was something like "I love Your house,/It's where Your glory dwells./I love Your house,/A place of miracles." It was playing all the time on Friday when I was feeling so stressed and so down. I love that song ah I love Your house. I realize Your house isn't about the church, but simply about where His presence is. And where is His presence?
For where two or three are gathered together in My name, I am there in the midst of them.
This is why. This is why I love this place. I love Your house :D

Oh-no-I-sidetracked-so-much-okay-let's-go-on!! Yup so Halloween. I was dressed as a king, with a bathrobe that was red and it was quite cool and yeap. They used eyeliner to draw me my mustache and beard :P HAVE TO UPLOAD PHOTOS SOON. Costumes were great. Chelsea and Winnie were SO COOL. Chelsea's a mime and Winnie my ghost queen. Krystle Anlynn and a few more were quite nice haha. Can't describe too sleepy alr will wait for photos! YAYYY! Cell was quite good, it went well..missed quite a number of them this week haven't been talking to them much ahh feels great to be with them! Did offering..was shaking the whole time wayyy too nervous [uh Krystle noticed oops!] wasn't really sure if I'd do well and I forgot to print it until this morning and a lot other delays hahaha. Hope I did well though..

Halloween itself was great too. It was raining at first so we ate first...then somewhere about 6PM it stopped. [PTL!] I'm a station mistress, so I spent quite some time in boredom haha while waiting for the people to come. I'm supposed to be a SLEEPY king, so I was 'sleeping' before they came and pretending to sleep is one boring task, let me tell you first. And my station was the baby food game [choose three items, mix all up, eat]. Easy? Ajay's was the best HAHAHA peanut butter + water + orange whoo! Super funny haha in the beginning they tried to throw it away but I gave them more XD Krystle's group [Ambrose eating] was great too haha they added all five by themselves. Own man ownage (Y)

So many new friends came! Whoo!~There were A LOT PEOPLE. Yay. It's a good thing. Getting closer and closer to our 60-80 target we set in the beginning of the year! Whoo! Keep on believing, keep on believing, keep on believing and never give up w445 we can do it!

4) Everything after that, 30/10
Lalala. Went for dinner with family, was really great. Then we went to NTUC ahh haven't gone to a supermarket together in ages! Still remember the lemongrass/cold storage times when we'll go down and buy so much snacks hehhee. They were fun, today was fun. I think I've got the best family ever. And now it's about to be 1AM so I really should go do QT then sleep! YAY THESE TWO DAYS HAVE BEEN GREAT.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW EITHER I KNOW IT'LL BE GREAT. I LOVE MY LIFE I LOVE MY FAMILY I LOVE W445 I LOVE GOD I LOVE SERVING HIM I LOVE EVERYTHING! I THINK I'M SO BLESSED..THAT NO MATTER WHAT TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS COME MY WAY I'LL KNOW THAT MY GOD IS SOVEREIGN, THAT EVERYTHING HAPPENS WITH HIS PERMISSION. AND I HAVE FAITH THAT NEXT YEAR WILL BE AWESOME! I LOVE THIS PLACE I LOVE HIS HOUSE I LOVE MY LIFEEEE!!

EDIT: the coding's somehow screwed up so colors don't show TT TT

I AM GRUMPY.
8:25 AM

Friday, October 29, 2010

I'm so late I'm so late I'm so late ahhh! And tacie hasn't woken up and kk charles hasn't sent me so I'm still at home and I can't leave ahhh!!
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:40 PM

Many people need desperately to receive this message: 'I feel and think much as you do, care about many of the things you care about, although most people don't care about them. You are not alone.'
From quotes-book on tumblr

I think I need it to.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:01 PM

I'm so tired ahh going for tennis now!!
Selection camp was...
Idk hahhaha
Quite fun but damn scary!!!!
:OOOOO
I'll post more later aghh tennis.
Looking forward to muscle ache tml :/
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:20 AM

Thursday, October 28, 2010

It's all an act.
It's all an act.
It's all an act.
AHHH.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:48 PM

Ahhh I'm so scared I'm so scared mustn't be scared ahhh!!
Ahhh okay phine ahhhhhh
I need to stop being scareddd lalala
Being scared won't help me I know that
But sometimes you.
Just.
Freak.
OUT!!!!
Ahhhhhh.
Ahhhhhh.
Idk alr.

I need to pray.
But I'm currently in the canteen.
So...how?
I need to release all my pent-up emotions
This week has been whoaaa
I know I can handle it I know I can
If God is with me who can be against me!
Okayy I need to sort out my thoughts, even in this noisy mess of a canteen.

Why I feel like this:
1) I screwed up OM.
I knew I would, but doing so still hurts me.
2) I feel so hopeless helping ALL OF THEM.
Like she said I just have to be there. I don't need to say anything.
And I remember something impt sophie was telling her cell..
She was saying how no one can cheer you up but yourself, and this applies to both them and me. If I need someone to listen, I know there are people who will listen to me. Are there? Most probably. But I think there'd be no point. Advice won't be the most helpful, sometimes we just need a listening ear to be there for you.
3) There's selection camp later
According to people, last year they shouted at the people until they cried just to see how they react under pressure. I'm not sure I can withstand that kind of pressure.
I must I must I must
I really want to get into PSB
Really really want to
Like I'm dying to get into it
Because I've been impacted by ___
And she's so cool
And I'd like to help them too.
Ahhh. I hope I won't cry.
Haven't cried in ages, but right now I already feel like crying.
4) I-I don't know.
There's just so much to do,
So much work..

But I feel better now, after spilling my thoughts, organising them..I needed to do this. Just puke out what's on my mind right now. Aiyah 2 wasn't elaborated enoughh..but I can't talk more about it.
Just know there's more?
Hahaha all right I'll pray later when I can find some place to..
Whoo blogspot I love you!! :)
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:03 PM

"Smile coz Christ is living in you"
Ruiqi thanks ahh you cheered me up I'm going to smile!! :D
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:12 PM

I'm so so so tired ahh I think idk!!
I need more sleep oh noo :(
In the end I didn't puke yesterday, but it was enough to make me tireedd
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:11 PM

I'm about to puke.
Literally.
Hacking my head off.
Coughing.
Whatever.
I feel really horrible.
Ahh stomach please don't fail me :(
Not now :(
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:52 AM

"Some people do philanthropy to leave a great world to their kids. But I'd rather leave a great kid to the world."
Charles Koch
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:12 AM

Mum just snipped off my fringe...wait, make that chopped off :(
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:49 AM

Pushed a door that said pull. Tsk.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:57 AM

♥ Not my day

I'm so arghhh..
My GPA sucked.
I mustn't emo, I mustn't emo, I mustn't emo...
And OM was horrible..
Cheer up Phine cheer up.
Cheer up.
Cheer up.

Idk why but I feel slightly better.
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:32 AM

Oh and yes we did eventually decide to go for OM, and it was a lot of fun, although I think I screwed it up. Still happy though :D
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:50 AM

I got my gpa back, and we went for om auditions again.
It was...quite depressing.
But I'm not going to be depressed!!
I'm going to keep trying, to keep believing.
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:49 AM

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

If anyone has any objections to me spamming my blog, please voice them.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:46 PM

I think I understand.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:24 AM

Louisa I love you :)
Z.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:50 AM

♥ Drama Nite

Today I spelt in front of four classes T-W-O-N for T-O-W-N. MLIA.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:12 AM

Trials keep coming although my exams are over. First there's ___, then there's ____, then there's OM, then there's Drama Nite, and then there's my results. These have really taught me to count on Him, His strength, and His love. I'd never be able to be anything without prayer. They also remind me that I love being in His presence. It's where I find joy.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:09 AM

♥ Okay I really should stop emo-ing

Oh dear this is bad I'm frustrated and I don't like it. Correction: I really do hate it. I rarely blog when I'm depressed, but I'll try it just this once. Phine just cheer up. Cheer up. Cheer up. Cheer up. It's all part of God's plan. It's all part of God's plan in my life. He's still sovereign. His love will never fail me.

I feel much better.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:04 AM

Trying so hard, TOO hard, to be happy.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:55 AM

I'm really really tired I think I'll go pray and forget about EVERYTHING on my schedule..I'm so worn out and all I need to pray!! Going to jump my frustrations out on the trampoline first though.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:01 AM

Rawr.
I'm not going to do om anymore.
Quite disappointed, but today I understood that I can't handle so much.
There's just waaay too much for me to do, all my commitments and all.
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:29 AM

So much work, so little time.
As usual.
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:19 AM

I'm so confused :/ I really don't know what to say...
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:03 AM

I'm really really stressed rawr!!
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:34 AM

I waited one hour for a stupid taxi which probably isn't coming :(
And I tried flagging 4 cabs from inside rtc
TT TT feel so stupid nao
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:33 AM

♥ 27/10

Josephine josephine josephine.
I'm tired.
So much work in front of me when I get home.
All right let's plan my schedule~
Reach home, bathe and all, QT, dinner...
Will be about 8 by then, so:
08:00PM-09:00PM: call peoplee;
09:00PM-11:00PM: OM;
11:00PM-12:00PM: Ms Lim
LOL what's with me? Since when was 12PM late? Probably have other stuff to do as well though, but that's the most I can stay up until, I think. Already quite tired.. OHNO just remembered drama nite! Raaahh.
Okay I'll sleep at 1AM max. No more than that. Pfft~
I musttt stick to the schedule whoo! XD let's go josephineee
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:08 AM

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

RIP Paul the octopus.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:38 PM

Drama Nite Auditions went well :D
Thanks megan!
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:29 PM

I've to do offering message this week haha michelle don't feel awkward XD. Actually it's me that will feel awkward in front of you. Pfft~
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I AM GRUMPY.
9:30 AM

There are times like these when I'm sososo tempted to say "no I don't want to help", but I know that I'd feel horrible. I almost wanted to ignore slau just now, to say no, but I wouldn't be able to sleep. When winnie was confused I was sleepy (lol). But I know that I am here to love the people, and that I love because I serve them, so I can't help but to help. Hahaha :D it's not a bad thing, to want to help.
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I AM GRUMPY.
9:28 AM

I love my blogskin.
Hallucination <3
Updated everything, please link! :D
And tell me your bloggie as well.

Whoo I'm high!!!
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:14 AM

"When you say a situation or a person is hopeless, you are slamming the door in the face of God."
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:10 AM

"We're not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be."
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:08 AM

"God, to me, it seems, is a verb, not a noun, proper or improper."

Hmm? I don't know what I think about this.
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:05 AM

"Though our feelings come and go, God's love for us does not."
I love C.S. Lewis
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:03 AM

"A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for."
William Shedd
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:02 AM

"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching."

Mm..
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:57 AM

"Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes worrying about are of no importance whatsoever..."

Isak Dinesen
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:51 AM

"Take time to deliberate; but when the time for action arrives, stop thinking and go in."
Quoting Napoleon Bonaparte
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:50 AM

"For every minute spent in organizing, an hour is earned."

Aye~
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:50 AM

I changed my mind. Heh.
I shall be lazy and go to sleep.
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:47 AM

"If more of us valued food and cheer and song above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world."

J.R.R Tolkein
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:35 AM

"There is no sincerer love than the love of food."
George Bernard Shaw
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:33 AM

"It isn't what you have, or who you are, or where you are, or what you are doing that makes you happy or unhappy. It is what you think about."

Dale Camegie
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:31 AM

"Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. Only you can be responsible for that. If you can't love and respect yourself - no one else will be able to make that happen. Accept who you are - completely; the good and the bad - and make changes as YOU see fit - not because you think someone else wants you to be different."

Stacy Charter
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12:30 AM

Gonna be un-lazy and swim later!!
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12:21 AM

Facebook is boring without tetris.
XD.
Today was fun.

NetCarn [whoo!!], talks [zzz], appraisal!
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12:19 AM

Monday, October 25, 2010

♥ Forgetful Fin

Omg I spent 30 minutes staring at my phone, trying to figure out what exactly it is that I needed to do 'cos I forgot. I knew I had to do something.
It just hit me.
I need to charge my phone.
TT TT I just wasted 30 minutes LOL
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7:55 AM

I loveee my new blogskin! Whoo ownage (Y)
But there's no archives and that's just depressing~
Never mind I'll change it soon.
Again.
Whoo!
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7:18 AM

It's depressing how I'm greeted by eff words when I go on fb/msn TT TT
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7:02 AM

"No confusion is not abundant."
LOL just remembered what sharvs said the other day (Y)
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2:04 AM

I realize trials will never ever end.
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2:02 AM

Sunday, October 24, 2010

I need wisdom wisdom wisdom
Ahhh so confused!!
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11:12 PM

It's Sunday and I'm alr kinda tired...
God keeps reminding me that I do all these things cos I love people.
God reminds me of why I do these things.

Why I keep on trying to reach out,
Why I even bother talking to them.

And I think that's really important.
To remember your purpose in life.
It keeps me going, aye, it does.

Sometimes its so hard to love.
So hard to keep praying for these people.

But I'll never stop.
I can't stop.

Love is really the sole motivator in my life.
Loving people fervently,
Loving God wholeheartedly.

And that's what's important.
Love.

So Lord, remind me once again that I do all these things because I love the people, because I love You. I really do love the people. ...Amen.
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7:25 AM

Rawwwrrr.
I was praying some days ago for trials and tribulations in my life.
Kinda wish God had ignored them ._.
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7:20 AM

"If I'm awake I won't be sleeping."

LOL I said that after much consideration, not realizing that that was just something utterly obvious TT TT anlynn you bewitched my brain.
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6:08 AM

"I didn't miss," Dagbert replied dryly.
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5:08 AM

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I'm so tired.
I'm so happy.
Tired + happy = slaphappy.
Whoo!

Today was fun.
Sharmie* came in the morning to -cough-do OM-cough-
Must learn to be more focused.
In the end two of us slept on my bed.
I like my bed.

Cell was at Krystle's house~
SO FUUUN.
It was just...
Slaphappy-making.
[Mich, do not comment on the excess use of slaphappy.]
PM, praise, worship, everything was good!
I kinda missed it...I don't know why.
And it feels like I haven't talked to Krystle in ageees.

The message was about PEACE.
Peace = inner calmness not based on outward something.
And I do think it's so true...
Before the exams, I'll always pray.
Because only when I pray will the peace of Christ come upon my heart and my mind.
And only then do I learn to trust in God.

God I trust You.
Many posts on my blog are about trust recently,
'Cos I notice how important it is
To confess that God is sovereign.

Hahah then just fellowshipped and all~
«Sherman and Jing En's voice are so cool XD»

Can't wait for halloweeeeeennn
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8:39 AM

"God weeps with us so that we may one day laugh with Him."

Jurgen Moltmann
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7:58 AM

I think the biggest assurance in my life is that I am loved.
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7:22 AM

My body ACHES.
Every step I take hurts my legs.
Oh dear):

-quote fb status-
I feel like an un-oiled gate. I can *literally* hear my hinges creak when I move them.
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5:07 AM

Must change blogskin to something rainbow-y-er?
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5:04 AM

Friday, October 22, 2010

I AM SO TIRED.
Today,
In school we had preparation for Drama Nite so we practised {I'm the ghoooost}
Then we started bowling again~
Finally not just staring at the computer...
Then tennis.
Oh the horror.

It was quite fun,
BUT super tiring.
Bowling + tennis = bad idea.

Think I'm getting blisters AGAIN.
And my muscles already ache.

Then we went for supper omg I ate so much!!
Competed with xusheng who eat more~
Whoo haha in the end we DRAWED.
Lol but yes I ate quite a lot.

Ahh I'm so tired and I'm in tacie's room nao.
Cos I got kicked out of my room.
Again.
Pfft it sucks): my qt was quite rushed because of that.
Was really short.
Me = sad.

Looking forward to cell tml omgg yayyy!
Don't know why, but this week's been long
And I'd really like to be with w445 again.
Typhoon don't hit hongkong!
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10:17 AM

Here I am, humbled by Your Majesty.
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4:46 AM

The heart has reasons that reason cannot know.
Blaise Pascal
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3:11 AM

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Wearing blue shoes and yellow socks, looking very weird! :S
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3:55 AM

I hate the haze >:(
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3:07 AM

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

♥ Leisure

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

William Henry Davies
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10:45 AM

♥ Time check - 1:41AM

I haven't slept at 2AM in a looooong time.
Ah the sense of accomplishment you feel when you stay up.

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10:41 AM

Computer = programmable electronic apparatus for processing data at high speed

What happened to that?
Computers for us *kids* are just for games.
"Mind-sucking drug that makes us lose all sense of logic and coherence."

I feel so useless after 8 hours of computer...
Really glad I went to do QT hahaha :P
Which was good YAYY.

((@swan: happy happy happy birthday whoo!! Thanks for being so fun to be around~nyehehe :D I love youuuuuuu. And stop saying sorry!))
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9:24 AM

Today I played 2 hours of tetris.
Oh dear.
But I learnt something new today.

Y'know how in tetris, when you press something wrongly, the best thing to do is just to cover that line with the mistake, and just move on?

During bs, it's repeated often that we should not feel "guilty", but we should feel "repentant". I think what this means is really not to hold on to the past, and change the future. In that tetris example, if I were to worry about what to do, or continue doing it that way, I'd most certainly not be as effective as I could be.

So I was just thinking about my marks, and about everything else. I may have done badly (and like I said in one of my posts yesterday) I've got to trust God. I'm going to work harder next year and do really really well.

I should stop holding on to my past mistakes, and let God change them.

It's amazing what things tetris can bring about.
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8:07 AM

♥ Personality Quiz

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.

You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.


Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.

You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.


Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.


Upbeat

You enjoy being around others and others enjoy being around you. You have a "live and let live" attitude; because you know that no one's perfect, you are forgiving and happy to give the benefit of the doubt.

You don't feel the need to be controversial or express contrary opinions all the time. You see no reason to go around rubbing people the wrong way.


Unflappable

You are not a slave to your emotions. It takes a lot to upset or unnerve you. That's why you're a good person to have around in a crisis.

You don't let it all hang out, which means that those around you often don't know the pressures you're under or what you're going through. You're not the kind of person people run from in a crisis.


Intellectual

You are thoughtful, rational, and comfortable in the world of ideas. People find you interesting to talk to. You're the living embodiment of the saying "You learn something new every day." In general, those with a high score on the "intellectual" trait are employed in such fields as teaching and research, and are enthusiastic about reading, foreign films, and classical music.

You do not avoid abstract conversation, experimenting with new ideas, or studying new things. It bores you to stick to the straight and narrow of what you already know.


Assertive

You behave in a confident and forceful manner, take charge of the situation, raise your hand in class, stand up for what you think is right, and lead others. Among those who have a high score on the "assertive" trait, many have jobs in which they are valued for their organizational skills as well as their talent for supervising others.

You are not interested in fading into the woodwork, leaving everything to fate, taking more time than necessary to accomplish a task, or avoiding confrontation.


Poised

You tend to feel at home wherever you find yourself, even in unfamiliar settings, with new people. It takes a lot to rattle you, and when rattled you recover quickly and gracefully.

You are usually not self-conscious or nervous when you're in an unfamiliar environment or with people you don't know.


Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.


Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested. With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

From http://www.signalpatterns.com/personality_survey/

I agree, actually :D

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7:46 AM

Lazy edit skin~
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6:19 AM

Just changed blogskin because:
1) I'm bored
2) My last blogskin looked too emo.
And then I realized this one isn't much better.
Pfft.
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6:07 AM

4 kinds of friends we need in our lives

1. The Prophet

The prophet is the type of person that calls us on any misguided attempts at something, makes us accountable for our behavior, and prompts us to be honest, even when that is not easy. The prophet challenges us, and can be a royal pain at times, but ultimately helps us to find freedom. Says Wicks, "Prophets point! They point to the fact that it doesn't matter whether pleasure or pain is involved, the only thing that matters is that we seek to see and live 'the truth' because only it will set us free."

2. The Cheerleader

To balance out the provocation and questioning of a prophet, a person also must have a few cheerleader friends: folks who offer unconditional love, support, and acceptance. Wicks says we need the encouragement of the cheerleader as much as the criticism and feedback of the prophet because "burnout is always around the corner when we don't have people who are ready to encourage us, see our gifts clearly, and be there for us when our involvement with people, their sometimes unrealistic demands, and our own crazy expectations for ourselves threaten to pull us down."

3. The Harasser

After we've been criticized and loved, we need to laugh. That's why we need harassers, the third kind of friend, who helps us to see the humor in life's frustrations and calamities. They help us to mock our unrealistic expectations, of ourselves and of others. Says Wicks, "This type of friend helps us regain and maintain perspective."

4. Guides

And finally, we need guides. Listeners. People who will, according to Wicks, "search and look for nuances in what we share with them to help us to uncover some of the 'voices' that are unconsciously guiding our lives, especially the ones that make us hesitant, anxious, fearful, and willful."



Read more: http://blog.beliefnet.com/beyondblue/relationships/friendships/2009/10/index.html#ixzz12u4j2URy

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5:59 AM

I'm damn stressed D:
Stupid Lit.
Stupid.
Stupid.

Okkk phine cheer up!!!!
Don't be so sad!

Be happy~smile.
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12:31 AM

Dear John:

I want a man who knows what love is all about. You are generous, kind, thoughtful. People who are not like you admit to being useless and inferior. You have ruined me for other men. I yearn for you. I have no feelings whatsoever when we're apart. I can be forever happy--will you let me be yours?

Gloria

Dear John:

I want a man who knows what love is. All about you are generous, kind, thoughtful people, who are not like you. Admit to being useless and inferior. You have ruined me. For other men, I yearn. For you, I have no feelings whatsoever. When we're apart, I can be forever happy. Will you let me be?

Yours,

Gloria

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12:10 AM

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I was just thinking about some of my past accomplishments. I'm amazed. How did I do those things? It's currently 12+ as I'm writing this, and I'm about to fall asleep. And I still have to do QT.

I used to sleep at 3...how did I do that? God you're amazing. After thinking about that, I look back even more to some of the things God did in my life. How did I do those things? How did I start the pm? How did I get into rg in the first place?

I just saw my paper again today...the dsa thing. Just reading it made me feel that bolt of JOY. God You're amazing. I haven't thanked You enough for everything that You've done for me.

For just simply loving me, caring for me.

Why did I ever doubt You'd do anything else? :)
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9:20 AM

@snuff: oops. You weren't supposed to see that. -blush-

@mich: let me guess...Hitler's quote?
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9:14 AM

I think my greatest fear is that I am incompetent.
Very simply just incompetent.

My greatest fear is that I am unable to accomplish what God has in mind for me.
That one day I may just give up,
And stop hanging on.

Yet that's exactly what God doesn't want...
I was just thinking the other day, what "trust" really means.
And recently I realized that trust isn't knowing God will give me my 4.0
I realize trust is about giving my whole life to God.
Committing my whole life into His hands.

For what is trust, if it is based on results?
Julie said something the other day about His love never failing us,
And not the results He gives never failing us.

I realized
Trust is simply just to tell God
"Not my will, but Yours."

And as I was saying,
I shouldn't be afraid of being incompetent.
Because that's simply not what God wants for me...
Right?

I mean, by myself I'm incompetent.
But I know God is definitely capable.
More capable than anything.
Its whether He wants to do it or not.
He's definitely able to...

By myself I'm incompetent.
So it's completely up to Him.

Lord, let my will and Yours be one.
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9:11 AM

RAWRR
I.
Am.
Tired;
Math
Ruined
My
Life.

I'm so annoyed >:(
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9:02 AM

Believe those who are seeking the truth.  Doubt those who find it.  ~Andre Gide
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12:01 AM

Monday, October 18, 2010

Etc = a sign to make others believe that you know more than you actually do.
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11:29 PM

A smile = a curve that can set a lot of things straight
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11:28 PM

"An evil exists that threatens every man, woman, and child of this great nation. We must take steps to ensure our domestic security and protect our Homeland." - Adolph Hitler

He really did believe he was saving his homeland, huh?
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11:18 PM

Answering machine: Hello. I'm home right now but cannot find the phone. Please leave a message and I will call you back as soon as I find it.
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9:20 PM

AHH I overslept thinking today was sunday!!
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4:53 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Got physics and geog back.
Don't know how I feel though~
For geog I'm not satisfied...
But I guess its quite good a mark.
Hope it'll be enough to pull my GPA up to a 3.6
Physics is just RAWR-ish
My GPA was 3.2, but barely 3.2...
So with SPA it drops to a high 2.8
64%
RAWR
So now it depends all on my PT.
Which I don't trust.

Trust God~
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10:23 PM

"If you didn't have to work so hard, you'd have more time to be depressed."

Ahh~I'm -kinda- looking forward to the work next year...sigh! Gonna be another tiring year but I don't mind :D
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8:44 AM

Are you part of the majority? If you say yes, then you are of the minority.
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8:16 AM

In Your presence is fullness of joy.
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7:53 AM

Anyone who uses the phrase "easy as taking candy from a baby" has never tried taking candy from a baby.
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7:04 AM

I intend to live forever, or die trying.
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7:00 AM

I don't suffer from insanity. I enjoy every minute of it.
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6:58 AM

"Actual Headline: Typhoon Rips Through Cemetery; Hundreds Dead"
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6:53 AM

"Sarcasm helps keep you from telling people what you really think of them."
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6:52 AM

"Give a man a match, and he'll be warm for a minute, but set him on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life."
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6:51 AM

If you get corn oil by squeezing corn, how do you get baby oil?
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6:48 AM

What does "it" mean in the sentence "What time is it?"?
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6:34 AM

What happened to my "after eoys I will..."?
I'm still kinda busy now~
Pfft.
Stressed):
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4:01 AM

Saturday, October 16, 2010

"If it jams, force it. If it breaks, it needed replacing anyway."
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10:53 PM

You cannot achieve the impossible without attempting the absurd.
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8:27 AM

You never truly understand something until you can explain it to your grandmother. --Albert Einstein
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8:23 AM

If you cannot convince them, confuse them
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8:21 AM

Always remember you're unique, just like everyone else.
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8:20 AM

Addicted to SUGAR!!
Ahhh, I'm HIGH.
Ahhh, I'm HIGH.
Ahhh, I'm HIGH.

AHHH!!! I'm high?!!!

Amazing what punctuation does.
But I do love SUGAR.

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7:16 AM

Oh the things boredom make you do...I just did something weird hahaha :P
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6:48 AM

I'M SO TIRED AHH,
QT in a bit~

Cg was fuuun.
Planning though, no message.
<For events>

P6 party's gonna be awesome-awesome-awesome so be
Excited-excited-excited whoo! :D

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5:34 AM

Friday, October 15, 2010

Don't worry about the world coming to an end today.  It is already tomorrow in Australia.  ~Charles Schulz
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7:48 PM

A celebrity is a person who works hard all his life to become well known, then wears dark glasses to avoid being recognized.  ~Fred Allen
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7:47 PM

Oh-no-I-overslept-was-so-tired-yesterday.
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7:43 PM

"Exactly," Jason agreed. "Percy Jackson is at the other camp, and he probably doesn't even remember who he is."

Omg I want the next book NAO ><
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8:52 AM

Ahh~I'm so tired:
But it was a really great day! :)
Looking forward to cell and visiting P6s tomorrow yayy.
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7:22 AM

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Nyehehe day at universal studios = fun! :D
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11:59 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

I'm young and do not know a lot,
Come and be my all.

-- Kid's Prayer
Ahhh I miss CCH!
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9:26 PM

www.hexrpg.com
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9:24 PM

"I don't particularly care about the usual."
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6:17 PM

"Who gets rewarded, the central banker who avoids a recession or the one who comes to 'correct' his predecessors' faults and happens to be there during some economic recovery? Who is more valuable, the politician who avoids a war or the one who starts a new one (and is lucky enough to win)?

I'm still at prologue :P
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6:15 PM

"We do not spontaneously learn that we don't learn that we don't learn."
Nassim Nicholas Taleb (Black Swan)

Read that through three times before I got it. Heh.
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6:05 PM

"What you know cannot really hurt you."

Nassim Nicholas Taleb (The Black Swan)

Cheem book :O
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5:54 PM

I don't get how people can count sheep to sleep.
I get bored and then think of all the weird stuff in the world.
And then I think of scary stuff :S
Which makes me unable to sleep.
I'd rather occupy my mind with the GP questions mm asked me heh.
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9:53 AM

"Cohesion" is a weird word :P
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9:42 AM

lonely the path you have chosen
a restless road no turning back
one day you will find your light again
don't you know
don't let go this time

follow your heart
let your love lead through the darkness
back to a place you once knew
i believe, i believe, i believe in you
follow your dreams
be yourself an angel of kindness
there's nothing that you cannot do
i believe, i believe, i believe in you

tout seul, tu t'en iras tout seul
coeur ouvert à l'univers
poursuis ta quête
sans regarder derrière
n'attends pas
que le jour se lève
suis ton étoile
va jusqu'où ton rêve t'emporte
un jour tu le toucheras
si tu crois, si tu crois, si tu crois en toi
suis ta lumière
n'éteins pas la flamme que tu portes
au fond de toi souviens toi
que je crois, que je crois, que je crois en toi

someday i'll find you
someday you'll find me too
and when i hold you close
i know that it's true

follow your heart
let your love lead through the darkness
back to a place you once knew
i believe, i believe, i believe in you
follow your dreams
be yourself an angel of kindness
there's nothing that you cannot do
i believe, i believe, i believe in you
i believe, i believe, i believe in you
i believe, i believe, i believe in you
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9:04 AM

Pour Your fire we burn with desire
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8:06 AM

Heh the feeling of being in bed and not caring what time I wake up is a novel experience.
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1:31 AM

It feels great knowing there's no math/physics/chinese/english/lit/history/geog/whatever left for me to do!!
Oops there's D&T.
Think I'll just fail :/
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1:26 AM

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

We're gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know! :D
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6:51 PM

Sharvaniiiiii.
Happy happy happy birthday!
I love youuuu.
Really I do.
You were the first person who talked to me properly.
You were the first person who treated me like a person.
In rg, of course.
Thank you for recruiting me,
{And how can I not thank you for bullying me?}
But I just want you to know that you made Term 3 manageable.
And without you I'd have lost all motivation long ago.
You offered me friendship and all :D
Thank you so much.

So in this new (joyful?) year,
May you continue to grow!
Grow taller, older, but most importantly,
May you grow up and continue to mature.
You amaze me with your maturity sometimes :O
And your ever-so-awesome accent.
And your super cool cheeminology I can only dream of writing.

Good luck for your exams and yadda yadda yadda.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! <3
(Welcome to the teen's club, dearest.)


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9:00 AM

Young people, it's wonderful to be young! Enjoy every minute of it. Do everything you want to do; take it all in. But remember that you must give an account to God for everything you do.
Ecclesiastes 11:9 (NLT)

In 10 hours I'll be FREE!!
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:33 AM

I lost my pencil case.
I'm just about the smartest person in the world, no?
T-T

Also,
Y'know the paper that cheered me up yesterday?
It has magical powers :O
It's only when I need it
(When I'm depressed ect ect)
That I find it!

Back to math :/
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:47 AM

Oops I almost fell off my bed!
Heh.
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7:29 AM

Amen = let it be true.

How many times have we forgotten the power of positive confession?
So today,
Let it be true.
Let my prayers be true.

The power of positive confession (Y)
God will bring my victory :D
He shall fight for me.

AMEN.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:29 AM

I'm on the verge of keeling my computer.
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:39 AM

I'm taking a nap
I have a headache.

RAWR.
(Means I love you in dino)
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:22 AM


I wish I could do that.
Snuff did I tell you I love you?
-blush-

I AM GRUMPY.
1:25 AM

♥ Albert Einstein


AH SO TRUE!!

I AM GRUMPY.
12:31 AM

Monday, October 11, 2010

[Simba:] I'm gonna be a mighty king
So enemies beware!
[Zazu:] Well, I've never seen a king of beasts
With quite so little hair
[Simba:] I'm gonna be the mane event
Like no king was before
I'm brushing up on looking down
I'm working on my ROAR
[Zazu:] Thus far, a rather uninspiring thing
[Simba:] Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
[Zazu: (Speaking)] You've rather a long way to go,
young master, if you think...
[Simba:] No one saying do this
[Zazu:] Now when I said that, I--
[Nala:] No one saying be there
[Zazu:] What I meant was...
[Simba:] No one saying stop that
[Zazu:] Look, what you don't realize...
[Simba and Nala:] No one saying see here
[Zazu:] Now see here!
[Simba:] Free to run around all day
[Zazu:] Well, that's definitely out...
[Simba:] Free to do it all my way!
[Zazu:] I think it's time that you and I
Arranged a heart to heart
[Simba:] Kings don't need advice
From little hornbills for a start
[Zazu:] If this is where the monarchy is headed
Count me out!
Out of service, out of Africa
I wouldn't hang about... aagh!
This child is getting wildly out of wing
[Simba:] Oh, I just can't wait to be king!
Everybody look left
Everybody look right
Everywhere you look I'm
Standing in the spotlight!
[Zazu: (Speaking, but in strict time)] Not yet!
[Chorus:] Let every creature go for broke and sing
Let's hear it in the herd and on the wing
It's gonna be King Simba's finest fling
[Simba & Chorus:] Oh I just can't wait to be king!
Oh I just can't wait to be king!
Oh I just can't waaaaaait ... to be king!

I need m'sleep >:/
I don't understand why I'm so tired argh!
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11:20 PM

I'm stressed.
I never thought I'd see this day.
Where I'm stressed over
MATH.

Math.
I've always loved math.
Always been (quite) good at it.
Always enjoyed math.
Always...

ARGH
Now I'm staring at you
And you're floating around in my head

And I'm like
Please be nice
And go where you're supposed to be

I feel like I'm stuck
Stuck in a puddle of goop
Stuck and I don't know where to go.

I wanna puke.

I'm still in school.
I want my bed.
I want my...

I don't know omg
I'm stressed.

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I AM GRUMPY.
10:50 PM

Me + math = :S
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10:40 PM

I have a theory
That is yet to be proven
A theory that makes sense
To me and me only.

So here's my theory
Please do not laugh.

I have a theory.
Exams cause your brains
To lose the ability of spelling.

For after today I cannot spell,
For today last year I couldn't spell.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:01 PM

I think I was listing :/ for history.
Not sure how I did though.
Pfft.

I haven't touched math in a year :S
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6:46 PM

Omg this is super random but something amazing happened.
I enjoy randomly looking up definitions on dictionary.com
So I looked up the word "stress",
Just to see what our dear dictionary says about it.
Guess what? :D
"Connection not established."

And I was like "uh, okay, fine!"
I mean, what else, right?
I tried the word "happy"
And guess what?

"1. Pleased or delighted"
Ect ect ect.
Haha random ttm!
But still, amazing enough.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:38 AM

@panther: Mm?

@mich: yehh <3 I completely agree.

@103-er: sigh I will I will I will!!
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:30 AM

Ahh talking to mich has really taken my mind off things.
And writing her her reply letter hehehe.
You're probably offline and won't see this till tml.
If you do:
Oops! :P
But thankyouverymuch for listening.

"Kthxbai"! :D
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:29 AM

I'm so blessed.
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:22 AM

"Only when you truly understand your enemy can you beat him. And at that instant, you'll find that you love him."
Ender's Game.

And that sums up what I understood today, or most of it anyway.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:48 AM

I hate technology.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:32 AM

I was feeling really down in the dumps just now.
Like, really really depressed.
So I prayed.
Praise was good.
Worship so-so.

So I prayed.
Nothing happened.
At first.
I was feeling even more discouraged, of course.
So I got up.
And switched on my phone.
And I don't know what happened.

I even took out my notes again.
But I suddenly spoke in tongues.
And it was...
Great.

I don't know how it happened.
I immediately put down my phone
And started to pray.

And while praying,
God just reminded me there is a purpose
To everything I'm doing now.
And that purpose is found in Him only.

I was feeling really depressed earlier.
But now I'm just happy.
That God has given me new hope again.
Strength.
To continue loving people.

Its been a tiring day.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:28 AM

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out to another is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.

But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing
He may avoid suffering and sorrow
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow, or live
Chained by his servitude he is a slave who has forfeited a freedom
Only a person who risks is free.


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I AM GRUMPY.
4:44 AM

I'm so stressed):
I need a call.
But there's no one I can tell all these
Weird stuff of other's.
I think.

I need a call from God.
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:44 AM

Joanne reminds me of me :P
She made this weird mistake.
Something like
2x6=18
Pfft.

Haha and then I was like.
"Eh jo, 2x6=18 ah?"
Then she was like
"Oh yahh horrr!"
In the super singlish way of her's.

And then she walked around muttering some numbers.
And then she checked her worksheet.
And was like "yesss!"
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:47 AM

Jess is so sweet <3
Her sense of justice.
Always.
No matter how much she'll get scolded,
She'll stand up for that person.

I admire her so for that fact.
Auntie's currently screaming at her now :/

I remember all the times auntie was screaming at me,
And she stood up for me.
She's so nice.
Her sense of justice puts me to shame.

Childlike faith (Y)
Not afraid of anything.
Childlike faith.
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I AM GRUMPY.
1:19 AM

The worst part about history is the fact that I can't blame anyone for it, or singapore will be poof! -disappears- :/

The best part about it is that it's actually useful.
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:10 AM

Sunday, October 10, 2010

My sis saw I was sleeping, and she put a soft toy next to me. Jess you're so sweet.
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I AM GRUMPY.
11:47 PM

what's the point of curtains when they don't block the sunlight out for you when you take afternoon naps? :/ they're useless at night!
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I AM GRUMPY.
10:49 PM

Uh, I realized something.
That I enjoyed doing the Physics paper.
God is amazing ><

It was fun doing it, and the best/worst thing was
That I only got my love for physics
During the paper itself
A bit too late, no?

Santa wasn't there - that's probably why.
But really...I liked it cos
I didn't know how to do it,
But I had to figure it out by pure logic.
Don't think I did very well,
But still,
I actually
Enjoyed
Physics. Amazing,
Truly amazing.
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I AM GRUMPY.
10:30 PM

"Studied" with Swan today.
Cough.
But I'm glad I stayed back with her,
Despite the fact that we never studied.

But I enjoyed talking to you.
Really <3


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I AM GRUMPY.
9:51 PM

I'm addicted to seaweed.
Pfft.
There goes my money, flying away.
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I AM GRUMPY.
9:18 PM

un rêve au-dessus des nuages
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7:43 PM

@swan: physics causes tumor :/
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:05 PM

God I put this paper into Your hands.


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I AM GRUMPY.
3:55 PM

"quotes your pm: The Lord will fight for you(:"

Michelle I love you.
I love you.
Did I tell you I love you?

I love you for your faith.
And for cheering me up when I feel down.
For being the person to tell me,
"Go sleep."

Thank you so much <3
You don't know just how much that one sentence has given me faith again.
And let me tell you
I certainly wasn't expecting that.

Not from you.
Thank you :D
For a moment I'd stopped believing the Lord would fight for me.
But as you reminded me,
He will.
And the best thing is you reminded me.

Thank you.

«You have the permission to feel honored.»
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:24 AM

I'm so confused :/
Both with FZ and with life in general.
And friends.
Well, friend.
Sigh.


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I AM GRUMPY.
7:17 AM

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry I just had to do that.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:26 AM

Sorry uh verbal rant incoming.
**warning**
Argh I hate FZ its so stupid and rg as well moodle's answers are all wrong and so is santa's answers they don't make sense fz would be fine if I had a good teacher for crying out loud and a school that actually gives us the right answers now I don't know what to write and I'm so confused and here I am, hating fz to the core of my heart, extremely confused and in need of desperate help. Its so stupid how I do the paper and now I don't know if what I'm doing is right or wrong what I did with mm makes sense, but now I'm beginning to doubt moodle's answers and santa's answers were screwed to begin with.

Argh okay time to pray.
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6:25 AM

... = gay baby is born.
Gay baby is born = poor baby.

So mich, stop "..."-ing me.
And I hate it.
The convo goes nowhere ._.

At least say "dots"!!
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5:41 AM

The difference between math and physics:
1) Math makes sense.
Physics doesn't.
2) Math is useful in our life.
Physics isn't.
3) Math is interesting.
Physics isn't.
4) We get a nice teacher during math.
Not during Physics.
5) Mr Lim actually teaches us the right stuff.
-cough-
6) I use math to relax.
After doing physics.
7) Math makes you smart.
Physics? :/

Similarities between math and physics:
1) I don't listen.
2) Too much formulas to memorize.

Sorry I'm like bleh-ing!! Haha I'm just rambling. Okay I shall go study.

Kthxbai.
Never understood the use of that.
Kthxbai.
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5:25 AM

There are days, like today, I'm amazed by my faith.
Simply, simply amazed.

I make it an effort to write a letter when I'm fired up about God, school and life.
So in times like this,
In times of stress,
In times of argh-ness,
I read the letter.

And reading the letter I wrote in the beginning of this term,
Has really cheered me up.
Some of the stuff I wrote.

This is how I stay faithful,
Despite life,
Despite the devil,
Despite everything else.

I quote myself:
"It's time to pick myself up;
It's time to cling onto God;
It's time to TAKE ON THE DEVIL.
I know this will be a hard term,
Possibly the hardest term in my life thus far.
It's gonna be hard to continue counting on God even in my circumstances,
It's going to be hard to continue praying daily...
It's going to be hard to do my work and remain faithful.
But these things are HARD,
Not IMPOSSIBLE.
For truly with God, nothing is impossible.
In this term, I am
Determined-determined-determined
Not to crumble and fall under the devil!!"

And then I go on to talk about lots of stuff, and quotes and all, but that captures the gist of it.

How.
Do.
I.
Do.
That?

I don't know.

I like the last sentence of my letter too! (Or last two.) "Amazing amazing amazing, that God is. He's simply amazing above all things."
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5:18 AM

People I hope will never find my blog:
My parents. ><
My sister.

Oh, that's all?
I don't know why I don't want them to see, actually.
Shrug.
That'll be my thought for today.

{I never go to sleep unless I'm thinking about something, which becomes a COI in my tiny little head, which is overloaded with FZ, which I will forget after tomorrow.}
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:09 AM

♥ Exodus 14:13-14

Do not be afraid. Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which He will accomplish for you today. For the Egyptians you see today, you shall see again no more forever. The Lord will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.
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I AM GRUMPY.
5:07 AM

I figure I'm stressed.
Made a freudian slip just now :/
I said "I've lost all ability to smile."
When I wanted to say
"I've lost all ability to spell."

And I'm still smiling, I think.
But its an unconscious freudian slip,
If I may repeat again.

Pfft...
And I've been dreaming such weird things.

I don't know if I'm stressed,
And that's the strange thing.
I'm working hard,
But my conscious mind isn't stressed.
At all.

I think my subconscious mind is.
Its a strange thing.

Information overload.
I'll be glad when all these end.
Not that I'm depressed or anything.
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:44 AM

十完十美的一天。
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:14 AM

@alza: I do have a slight inkling as to who SHE is.

@sharms: yupps I will!
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I AM GRUMPY.
3:04 AM

"Don't trust him"

MM when talking about santa.
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I AM GRUMPY.
2:25 AM

"I shut my eyes in order to see."

Paul Gauguin

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I AM GRUMPY.
12:15 AM

"Innovation distinguishes between a leader and a follower."

Steve Jobs.
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:10 AM


If there was no faith there would be no living in this world.  We couldn't even eat hash with safety.  ~Josh Billings, His Complete Works, 1888
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I AM GRUMPY.
12:03 AM

Saturday, October 9, 2010

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

All the world's a stage by William Shakespeare.
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I AM GRUMPY.
11:47 PM

How awesome is this place.
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11:33 PM

It just occurred to me that my sister was once a child.
A teen.
Like, (dare I say it?) me.
Or was she?

I think she was.
And that's a revelation for me.
Because...
Because...
I don't know, actually.
It's just never occurred to me that my sis was once a kid!

How was she like?
Like me?

When I look at her, I can only see her now:
Smart,
Daring,
Outgoing,
And I want to be like her.

Sometimes it seems so hard to live her legacy.
Sometimes it seems so hard to be like her.
To do as well as she does.
She's like, my idol.
As well as some other people >< but that's beside the point.

So anyway,
It just occurred to me.
She used to be a kid.
She used to be like me.

Maybe being her isn't so impossible after all.

Do I even want to be her?
I feel like Felicity, and she's my Darrell.
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I AM GRUMPY.
7:47 AM

"A fine is a tax for doing wrong. A tax is a fine for doing well."
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7:39 AM

"How long a minute is depends on what side of the bathroom door you're on."

It also depends on where in math class you're sitting - the front, or celine's seat.
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7:37 AM

"Take my advice; I don't use it anyway."

Don't you just love quotes that are blog-worthy?
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7:35 AM

"When I die, I'd like to die like my Grandfather, peacefully in his sleep, and not like the people screaming in his car."

Some random quote from idk where.
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7:28 AM

"Ur present teacher will be kill u, I will only be disappointed." (When talking about failing Chinese)
Mr Tan

Oops.
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7:21 AM

Tag replies
@anonymous: yup. And you're allowed to take it as a compliment. You're random too.

@103-er: omg will you guys stop anonymous-ing me its getting on my nerves >:( WHO ARE YOU. But I will...I will...I think. Hahaha. After the exams probably.

@anonymous: WHO ARE YOU TOO.

@everyone else: don't sign off as anonymous or I'll keel you >w<
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6:55 AM

I don't understand some people.
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6:48 AM

"Time's fun when you're having flies." -- Kermit the Frog
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:27 AM

"I am not a vegetarian because I love animals; I am a vegetarian because I hate plants." -- A. Whitney Brown

LOL okay I'm really gonna do physics now just saw that couldn't help myself!!
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6:25 AM

If I enjoy geeky stuff,
Does that make me geeky?

Probably, right?

If I enjoy reading up about things like the Monty Hall problem,
If I enjoy reading poems,
If I enjoy reading about Freudian slips,
If I'm proud of being geeky,
Does that make me geeky?

Oh dear I'm geeky.
I spotted two Freudian slips Krystle made just now :P
Don't remember now though.

Pfft, I took the brain test on lumosity.
And they gave me a B.
And guess what pulled it down:
Memory.
They said I have trouble answering stuff.

Maybe I should've lied when they asked:
"Do you often go into a room, and forget why you're there?"
Pfft :/
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:24 AM

I realize why I don't like people reading my blog.
<Yes anlynn, this was inspired by you>
I just don't enjoy showing emotion.

Shrug.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:14 AM

"The real trouble with reality is that there's no background music."

I'm spamming posts.
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I AM GRUMPY.
6:06 AM

Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday
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6:05 AM

Guess where I am now?

In bed.
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6:03 AM

"Procrastination is the art of keeping up with yesterday."
Don Marquis

This, on the other hand, I completely agree with.
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6:02 AM

"Without education we are in a horrible and deadly danger of taking educated people seriously."

G.K. Chesterton

Don't particularly agree, but its quite funny.
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6:01 AM

"I don't at all like knowing what people say of me behind my back. It makes me far too conceited."

~Oscar Wilde,
The most egoistic person ever.

Another Panther-worthy quote? Boss, what d'you think?
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5:59 AM

Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin.

`Tori Amos
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5:57 AM

I realize my dad dotes on me so much.
I think I'm slightly spoilt ><
He kept asking me if I was fine cos I couldn't go out.
I wasn't at first luh, and I think he noticed.

And that's so sweet <3
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5:54 AM

♥ Joy

Dinner <3 hahaha. I do so enjoy having dinner with my sisters :) no wait - make that I enjoy talking to them, especially 大姐。And she's so smart :/ sometimes I feel like I'll never live up to their expectations of what's for me.

I remember why I stopped writing in chunks:
I get distracted waayyy too easily haha.
So short lines here we go!

Today's message was about joy, as I was saying.
And when I came into this school,
I really wanted to impact the school.
Not just in my studies, which I wanted to as well.
Or in my cca,
Or in any way that can be measured with "achievements", as you call them.
But I wanted to impact my class,
To always be there for those who needed help.

And I do hope I've succeeded, just a little at least.
I hope that I've made you smile,
At least once in this short/long year.
I think that's the basis of it all.
Making you smile.
Every single one in class, and not just my friends.

For the people I talk to more often,
I hope I've been a friend when you've needed me.
To be someone who you can talk to when you really need help.

Have I?
That I'm not sure,
But I sincerely hope so.

I like what "joy" means.
"Inner happiness not dependent on outward circumstances."
Especially in this exam period, I will take action to rejoice.
And in this time, really impact 103.

I hope I'll be able to do that.
Yes, I've often asked myself
"If I didn't exist, would my absence be felt?"

I don't know.
Still praying, I guess (Y)
Heh, looking forward to QT later.
{Its another thing I've learnt this week - to take time to enjoy my QT, especially amidst all the stress.}

Then we celebrated my -cough-belated-cough- birthday.
I think birthdays are special days where one feels loved.
Not that I'm not loved on other days,
But birthdays have that special feeling.
That make you KNOW, 100% you're loved,
Simply for being you. {Dr Seuss' quote!}
I think that's what the purpose of birthdays are,
And not to mark the day of your birth, really.

Just like in the Giver, y'know.
They didn't have birthdays.
But they were still born.
But they didn't have birthdays.
Why?
They were not loved.
They didn't know the sense of individuality.
And I think birthdays, that one day,
Out of 365,
Are worth it in exchange
For the "utopia" found in the Giver.

I was reading the card...
Ah~I feel so loved.
I might,
Or might not,
Post about some stuff later.

I want my password protected posts on wordpress >:( to talk about stuff pfft.

I love balloons.
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5:51 AM

So I'm in bed now, slacking my night away.
Should get out of bed soon :/
Emphasis: Soon. Soon. Soon.
Omg when you write/type/say a word out many times, it begins to look wrong.
Try it.
Stare at a word you just wrote.
Go on, try.
Its fun.

Sorry random. Anyway, as I was saying, I'm in bed now.

After a good day with the cell :D Well, the "good" is slightly redundant. Time I spend with the cell - and of course, with God - are always good, amen?

Led games today :O the game was slightly wrong heehee. Blame chelsea...and me.
Started late today. Wish my sis would stop harping on that fact >< Pfft.

The message was about JOY. And it meant a lot to me. The whole year, I've been trying to shine in school: not just with my studies, but with that smile of mine, to always keep on encouraging people. And I reckon I've succeeded, just a little.

Aiyah dinner laters :/ I haven't posted a long post in a long time, with proper sentences and all. Sigh blogger.
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4:53 AM

I *almost* fought with my mum.
Cos I wanted to go study with some people in the cell.
But then I realized it just wasn't worth it.
Fighting with my mum isn't worth it, just to go study with anlynn.
But I think the reason that I was arguing was the *unfairness* of it all.
I hate those situations.
When people are being unfair.
That's one reason I never fight with 大姐, not because I'm scared of her,
But simply because she has a reason for whatever she argues for.
And most of the time, I agree with her reason.

I'm a person who works that way.
Make sense = okay I will/won't do it.
Not make sense = fight.
Not exactly proud of the second one, but whatever luh :P

So eventually I didn't fight with my mum,
Though I did begin to tear ><

Then I sang "Everyday - Hillsong".
And felt perfectly fine again.

Pfft.
Emotions are strange things, yes?
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I AM GRUMPY.
4:46 AM

Birthdays were made for all of us to feel loved, that one special day of our lives.
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3:17 AM

Friday, October 8, 2010

It takes two people to make a lie work: the person who tells it, and the person who believes it.

-- Jodi Picoult
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I AM GRUMPY.
8:41 PM

It's saturday and I'm awake at 5AM cos?
Well, I dreamt I overslept for some super important thing by 2 hours. I guess that woke me up with a jerk.

After that we continued with - I don't remember. But to put it very simply my patient died and her cleaner killed her and a lot very confusing stuff so I shot the cleaner (cos I suspected) but the cleaner wasn't the real cleaner!

Guess what? Too much nikita.
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2:16 PM

Tag replies !
@mich: well, chinese kills you. You don't need to kill yourself. You do realize that chinese simply eats up your brain space, when you can use that for more useful stuff like harvest moon? Oh dear I sound like celine. And I don't even play harvest moon anymore - it was an example. The first one that came to my mind, and that's really scary.

@boss: haha it does, no? :D ciel knows you well enough.

@anonymous: you're weird >< it's okay, I like weird.
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9:28 AM

"No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness."
— Aristotle

Such a nice way of saying he's mad, and so is almost everyone I know.


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9:20 AM

"Anyone can become angry. That is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose and in the right way - that is not easy."
— Aristotle
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I AM GRUMPY.
9:18 AM

When people say "I don't care", do they really not care? Or is it just that they don't want to show emotion (hurt/joy/pain/depression)? Humans are strange things.


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9:17 AM


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