Thursday, October 28, 2010
Ahhh I'm so scared I'm so scared mustn't be scared ahhh!!
Ahhh okay phine ahhhhhh
I need to stop being scareddd lalala
Being scared won't help me I know that
But sometimes you.
Just.
Freak.
OUT!!!!
Ahhhhhh.
Ahhhhhh.
Idk alr.
I need to pray.
But I'm currently in the canteen.
So...how?
I need to release all my pent-up emotions
This week has been whoaaa
I know I can handle it I know I can
If God is with me who can be against me!
Okayy I need to sort out my thoughts, even in this noisy mess of a canteen.
Why I feel like this:
1) I screwed up OM.
I knew I would, but doing so still hurts me.
2) I feel so hopeless helping ALL OF THEM.
Like she said I just have to be there. I don't need to say anything.
And I remember something impt sophie was telling her cell..
She was saying how no one can cheer you up but yourself, and this applies to both them and me. If I need someone to listen, I know there are people who will listen to me. Are there? Most probably. But I think there'd be no point. Advice won't be the most helpful, sometimes we just need a listening ear to be there for you.
3) There's selection camp later
According to people, last year they shouted at the people until they cried just to see how they react under pressure. I'm not sure I can withstand that kind of pressure.
I must I must I must
I really want to get into PSB
Really really want to
Like I'm dying to get into it
Because I've been impacted by ___
And she's so cool
And I'd like to help them too.
Ahhh. I hope I won't cry.
Haven't cried in ages, but right now I already feel like crying.
4) I-I don't know.
There's just so much to do,
So much work..
But I feel better now, after spilling my thoughts, organising them..I needed to do this. Just puke out what's on my mind right now. Aiyah 2 wasn't elaborated enoughh..but I can't talk more about it.
Just know there's more?
Hahaha all right I'll pray later when I can find some place to..
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Ahhh okay phine ahhhhhh
I need to stop being scareddd lalala
Being scared won't help me I know that
But sometimes you.
Just.
Freak.
OUT!!!!
Ahhhhhh.
Ahhhhhh.
Idk alr.
I need to pray.
But I'm currently in the canteen.
So...how?
I need to release all my pent-up emotions
This week has been whoaaa
I know I can handle it I know I can
If God is with me who can be against me!
Okayy I need to sort out my thoughts, even in this noisy mess of a canteen.
Why I feel like this:
1) I screwed up OM.
I knew I would, but doing so still hurts me.
2) I feel so hopeless helping ALL OF THEM.
Like she said I just have to be there. I don't need to say anything.
And I remember something impt sophie was telling her cell..
She was saying how no one can cheer you up but yourself, and this applies to both them and me. If I need someone to listen, I know there are people who will listen to me. Are there? Most probably. But I think there'd be no point. Advice won't be the most helpful, sometimes we just need a listening ear to be there for you.
3) There's selection camp later
According to people, last year they shouted at the people until they cried just to see how they react under pressure. I'm not sure I can withstand that kind of pressure.
I must I must I must
I really want to get into PSB
Really really want to
Like I'm dying to get into it
Because I've been impacted by ___
And she's so cool
And I'd like to help them too.
Ahhh. I hope I won't cry.
Haven't cried in ages, but right now I already feel like crying.
4) I-I don't know.
There's just so much to do,
So much work..
But I feel better now, after spilling my thoughts, organising them..I needed to do this. Just puke out what's on my mind right now. Aiyah 2 wasn't elaborated enoughh..but I can't talk more about it.
Just know there's more?
Hahaha all right I'll pray later when I can find some place to..
Whoo blogspot I love you!! :)
Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!
7:03 PM
